All the times...

Think back
On all the times
You knew

I hope you feel
The pain inside
A new

Tell me
Why you were
Untrue


I understand life is complicated. I understand some things are not meant to be, because my God has a better plan in store.  But the one thing I hope you've learned from this is not to mess with a heart, cause when you do it means you're a jack ass. And now I'm picking up the pieces.

Haha, yeah right...

Part 1:
People make promises a lot. I've come to the conclusion that people also break promises a lot.
Saying you'll never hurt someone is a lot to carry on your shoulders.
Cause people hurt you all the time, whether they try to or not.
And it's cause we're people.

I'm done with people making promises they can't keep.

But I'm all for someone who is willing to stick with what they said in the beginning.
Edward Ferrars, I love you.

Part 2:
I understand people change. Promises aren't about how we feel, otherwise no one would keep any sort of promise. Promises are about being truly committed through thick and thin.

If you were never going to truly commit, your promises meant nothing.
Just words. And that's all we are sometimes: just words.

A Year Later

It hasn't been quite a year, but God is still faithful, still in control, still the only thing I need.
He's not the only thing I want though. And I think it's a good thing I've realized that.

I want to be swept away. I want to be taken out dancing.
I want to go star gazing with someone. I want to go on a hot air balloon ride. I want to go on a picnic. I want to be taken out to a fancy dinner once in a while, or any dinner really. I just want to be surprised.

Is that too much to ask?

And I want to build someone up and be built up. I want to argue and figure out God's world with someone.

A relationship isn't about compatibility, or friendship. Anyone can be friends. A relationship is about being based on something that will never fade, on Someone who will never give up on you. Christ.