Crying Happiness

I cry a lot.
I must cry more than the average person.
It's something I've accepted about me, but I also think I can control it more than I believe sometimes.
What I realized after working in a stress-filled environment for years, was that crying is only appropriate at certain times. Easy to say...hard to practice.

When I'm tired, I could cry at virtually anything. I'll just close my eyes and tears start coming and I have no idea why. Crying is how I express how I'm feeling on the inside, which could be sad or happy.
It's a stress reliever for me, and doesn't automatically mean I am this weak person or can't handle things. It's one part of how I handle it.

Last Saturday I started crying. I was in a car, surrounded by some of my closest friends, and I realized just how blessed I am. God is making everything I ever desired come true. And He is doing it in a way I never imagined or timed.

"Delight yourself in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart."
I used to say that verse to myself over and over. I'm starting to live it now.

I wrote a song about Happy Tears. Still working on it, but this kind of explains my crazy week of getting fired and happiness:

            This Good
You scratch yourself in your sleep
But you don't know why
Your momma said it was their stress
But you don't want to give up the fight

Now you're sitting in the car with your best friends
Thinking, how did my life turn out this good
Everything I ever hoped, 
Turned out better than it should
So I'm crying happiness, crying happiness

You see yourself in the mirror
And tell yourself not to cry
Screaming, "You're not a failure!"
But you are dying inside

Now you're sitting in the car with your best friends
Thinking, how did my life turn out this good
Everything I ever hoped, 
Turned out better than it should
So I'm crying happiness, crying happiness

All you wanted was to hug him
As his number dialed on your phone
He took you out for drinks and was so sweet
Just the two of you alone

Now you're sitting in the car with your best friends
Thinking, how did my life turn out this good
Everything I ever hoped, 
Turned out better than it should
So I'm crying happiness, crying happiness

You realize you don't deserve him
As the stars above you shine
You've never seen anyone like him
And you're crying cause you're fine. 
Crying happiness, crying happiness
Crying happiness, oh, oh 

Now you're sitting in the car with your best friend
Thinking, how did my life turn out this good
Everything I ever hoped, 
Turned out better than it should
So I'm crying happiness, crying happiness